Its ok I'm in my own world, they know me here!!

1. My mother is most important person in my life. She has and always wil be the most consistent person in my life.

2. Honesty, Integrity, Respect and Intelligence are key characteristics that I look for in people I choose to spend my time. I am not looking for falsities in the people I associate myself with (I am extremely intuitive and can pinpoint a liar in a heartbeat). I want people to know themselves, and not be afraid to share themselves with another.

3. Humor is also very big for me. I have a good sense of humor....I am a little sarcastic at times but I love to laugh and I like to make others laugh and have a good time. You must be funny and not too serious all the time, but still have a caring and attentive, serious side.

4. Music is my faithful and constant companion. I've recently been looking to the past and am rediscovering my likes.

5. As much as I would like to be in a relationship, be married, and have children...I don't feel my life will end or be worthless with outall of the above. If my life was useless and I was just taking up air God would not continue to let me live. Even when I am unhappy I thank God for waking me up in the morning. It has been my experience that "love" tends to find you, not the other way around, so I haven't been searching for any special someone. I've just been living my life and enjoying it. My challenge has always been to find a balance between my penchant for solitude and this innate desire to be a part of a loving relationship.

6. I may be shy to the point that I wouldn't dare approach a woman when I go to a bar or nightclub but I can make women laugh and engage them in decent conversation.

7. To be honest, dating is a catch-22 situation for me. I get stressed out getting ready for a date, knowing that the fates have conspired against me many times in the past, but I remain hopeful that my little speck of dust in the universe will glisten to a woman that can see rightly with her heart.

8. By my very nature, I am a happy person. I am happy go lucky most moments, but anal about time and prone to make mistakes and mess up ... I will apologize ... I recognize that I am human. Not perfect ... imperfect... I am learning this one again and again... which is teaching me to take more time to communicate, listen and be compassionate towards others.

9. I am someone who will not let others dictate what I think, butnot so stubborn that I do not have an open mind.

10. I am someone who can be serious one moment, silly the next. Ambitious, yet takes the timeto smell the roses. I'm happy going out or lying up on the couch. I will not pick at everything you say, but will not hesitate to stop youwhen you start talking shit.

11. Interesting, complicated, tolerant, demanding, giving, talented, klutzy, affectionate, outgoing, shy, trustworthy, intelligent, understanding, talkative, good listener, and more. In other words, I am a walking, talking contradiction: An introverted extrovert..Idealistic realist. My perspectives and character can be summed up by these words: practical, simple, open, generous, confident, curious, pragmatic, adventurous, trusting.

12. People have told me I think too much, and that is only because I am utterly curious about the world around me, but who wants to be with someone that doesn't have a brain - come on, really!

(you tired of reading yet? good here's a little more..)

13. I am pretty laid back and I don't like people who brings drama to the table. I've learned to be open to possibilities, be low on expectations, andalways be happy to make a new friend.I do not want to miss anexperience just because life is short. So I live my best life by being open to infinite possibilities. Those possibilities include meeting like-minded folks who share similar interests and are growingin a positive manner.

14. At times, I want intimacy and connection that might resemble true love but really amounts the sum of its parts: good conversations, comfort in silence, long, soft, passionate kisses, strong, lingering hugs, some snuggling, semi-weekly sleepovers.

15. People think I'm a player. When actually at times I desire no strings sexual encounters. But...BUT...I want them consistently and with one person and if that leads to something more, then it was meant to be

16. I love a good face-to-face conversation but don't care to talk on the telephone unless I need to. I can appear detached and indifferent despite being completely engaged.

17. I have a lot of nice things but I'm not materialistic.

18. I am a true October Libra man...not sure what that is....
LIBRA - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

19. Though I am goal oriented and seek professional enrichment, my career does not fully define who I am. No matter my drive to be successful, I choose to take the time to enjoy my personal life with friends and family along the way. These are precious moments you can take with you as you journey through life.

20. I have major abandonment issues which causes me to not let people get close to me.

21. I am a big flirt, mainly because I know people don't take me seriously

22. I am what is left. Busted relationships. Regret. Debt. Lessons learned. I have my issues, sure. I'm sarcastic, cynical. I've had my run-ins with drugs and alcohol. But I know who I am. I'm trying to be a better person than I was the day before.

23. I am a mixture of so many people, places, things, ideas, and experiences. I once was ambitious without passion, and passionate without drive. I've seen it all without going far, and seen nothing everywhere. One day I want it all, the next I think I could just be happy with nothing. My most creative thoughts may stay trapped in my mind, while I wish I could take back terrible things that I have said. I've put myself in hellish situations for moments of love.

24. To be honest most of the time I feel so despondent that I can't imagine I'll be able to fake a good enough smile. Maybe some day I'll feel better. Or maybe I won't, but will take a stronger pill, drive a better car, live in a bigger house or be fully diversified. Whatever it takes. I'm wondering who will come my way, and when that will be. Maybe today. Maybe never. I never imagined that I'd ever face living my life alone. But today I'm not so sure it won't happen. If I die in my car on the way home today, will I have died without ever truly being loved? Did anyone in my life ever feel lucky to have me?

25. Who am I? Well according to friends and family I would be considered a free spirit, not to be confused with a libertine. I am inclined to explore life and taste new experiences that hold true to the deepest parts of myself vs. being influenced by what the masses around me are doing. I generally think freely and have the courage to hear my own voice and follow my own integrity. Along with these qualities, some would call me an idealist, but really I try to remain an optimistic realist. I understand the world as it is, but look for the beautiful qualities in the people and places that I interact. Friends and family are very important to me. My relationships all hold important lessons and experiences to learn from; the fact that we are all individuals with different ideas, thoughts and perceptions makes for a life full of enrichment and support on many levels. I am definitely a lover of those within my space, and try to understand each person for what they bring to the table. I am a French fried brown human being clothed in a masculine body...dancing through life with a smile most days ... I am a person with eclectic tastes...interesting character with varied passions for museums, music, reading, walking, nature, art, films, peace, happiness, forgiveness, growth, self development, and authentic expression.

Man that was a lot, I know. I hope that it gave you some insight into me Antoine. I know I'm in my own little word but its ok, they know me here.